My Rock Bottom
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So I was just reading @emrusciano facebook post about her hitting rock bottom and laying on the ground in front of her friends house sobbing until he came home picked her up, listened to her story and proceeded to help her in such a generous way....it hit home with me and took me back to my lowest point. My rock bottom was December 2012. I was supposed to attend a work function, a function that I organised but my anxiety had got to the point where I couldn't face all those people, now these people weren't strangers they were friends and colleagues but I couldn't bring myself to go. While I made some excuse that I was sick the truth is I spent that night curled up in the fetal position on the floor at my mummas house bawling my eyes out. My hubby was at a loss with what to do, my mumma hugged me and tried to calm me but I couldnt see a way out. While I know that they felt like they weren't able to help me, the fact that they were just there for me that night probably saved my life. In the weeks that followed I made some life changing decisions and decided it was time to take back my life. I resigned from my job and I made it my new job to get better both physically and emotionally. It isn't easy to take a long hard look at your life and see your weaknesses and how you self sabotage but I did it and with every improvement I made it reinforced that I was on the right path. Now that path has given me a new body, new confidence, a new baby and most importantly a new outlook on life. I no longer wonder what use am I to the world, I now know that my gift to the world is a story of inspiration and motivation.