As a kid, I played a few sports but quit once I reached middle school because you had to perform at a certain level. I tried joining the volleyball team when I was in high school but no-one would practice with me because I was getting bullied and was somewhat of a outcast. I was always chubby but I got quite big at 18 when fundraising for a missions trip to Vanuatu- we were meant to fundraise by selling chocolate bars, but I brought ate as many as I sold. The next year I joined the gym and Weight Watchers, and started going on insanely long walks and I lost 15% of my body weight. I looked great but I only made it half way to my goal. About half way through the year, I got diagnosed with Bipolar and got put on Epilium, which caused me to get really hungry, so I ate and ate. That, and moving to England for three years and trying lots of new foods meant that I got much bigger than I had ever been before. I reached 125 kilos and became morbidly obese for the first time. I struggled to breathe when I rolled over in bed or climbed up two or three flights of steps, would get dizzy, and would sometimes wake up choking. I was tired all the time and couldn't walk long distances. I joined a different gym, but kept eating junk food for six months. I went to the gym occassionally and started walking lots but my weight didn't really change until I moved cities. I have been unemployed because of my Bipolar amongst other things. My sister said she knew someone who had heaps more energy just after losing 10 kilos, so I decided maybe I should do the same. Maybe once I get to a healthy weight range I will be able to tackle bigger goals? I would like to be self employed and can consider going to University. At the moment I do not have much mental energy. My fitness has gotten much better this year. I have always had a picture in my mind of how I wanted to look but I never really believed it was possible.
I hate cardio but like resistance training. I like fitting into my clothing better and being able to breathe again. I like knowing I won't be needing a machine to help me sleep and stay alive. There are many sports I would like to try, but I don't think I'm fit enough yet. I have a few things planned for when my weigh drops a bit.