Well I have been in the fitness industry almost 17 years, have been a collegic athlete and stuck to what I knew my body could handle. Being skinny my whole life I quietly wanted a Jackie Joyner body, a 155 lb stacked powerhouse. Well over the past 10 years I was able to go from 130 to 159 but not by working out. It was stress weight, then happy fat weight and now my doctor is telling me you need to make some healthy choices. On top of that I met a great guy who loved to feed and take care of me and now I am at my heaviest 159 lbs. Preparing for a wedding started the process, a mini fitness challenge with my team and next thing you know I lost 20lbs. I Manage to keep it off until my honeymoon in Thailand later last year. Gained about 12 lbs no big deal, but wow my body at this age doesn't handle it very well. Yuck, in the real world I looked fine in a swimsuit, but back in my bikini contest days I would have been the laughing stock. Here we are 2013, its been 7 years since my last Haiwian Tropic contest. A friend and I decided to get ready for the upcoming NPC season wanted to do figure and I of course want to do bikini. I had 5 months to get ready. Now I could have done what I do best, lose a ton of weight quickly, but when I saw the Olympia 2012, my mouth dropped. I knew that this was no joke. Losing weight is not what it's all about it time to grow muscle. I watch Youtube almost everyday to learn and then I was hooked. Yeah I am old and have body full of stretch marks, but my competitiveness has never left me. So here I am, and after being in the gym over 20 years the real fitness journey finally begins.

Well, I can't say that I love it. My whole life things have come easy to me as far body image. But gaining muscle has always been a thorn in my side. In college going up against girls who were 30 lbs heavier was no joke, I had to be quicker to compete. Well over the years I have thought about it, but was too afraid that I wouldn't be able to made the gains. I have decided to tackle this adventure alone for the first competition. Why? Being in the industry for 20 years, and having a competitive nature, my coaches were free. I would watch and learn, and that has proven to be very successful for me. Watching and learning those who were great. Coping styles and forms etc, and this mind set has gotten me 2 athletic scholarships, a free education, a great job, a some modeling opportunities. So I spend about 1 hour a day watching, reading, and surfing the internet. Trial and error, quickly making adjustments etc. I know deep down that if I had a coach I would get there faster and have great success, but what I have also learned from watching, is seeing people pouring the money into something and getting nothing in return, if I have potential to be great I will soon find out. If I do well in the up coming event, I will then decide to invest in a coach.