I was a dancer throughout middle school and high school and then picked up running my sophomore and junior year of high school. I battled with anorexia and binge eating all my life and thought by working out int he gym that I could get skinny and not be fat. As I went along i really started to like working out and lifting weights. as i battled my eating disorder, i also struggled with the fact that i wanted to gain muscle definition and get ripped, when i wasn't doing what was needed to get that way.It was a struggle for me, i was a cardio bunny, afraid to lift heavy due to the misconception that it would make me bulky ( I know that is not the case now. I was young and dumb) i would do cardio for 3 hours a day and do 45 minutes of small weight lifting. I took 8 different generic diet pills that you can get over the counter, and was only eating once a day. I ended up giving myself a minor heart attack and had a heat stroke because i was so dehydrated fro not drinking water, barely eating, and doing 8 different diet pills.After i was in the hospital for that, I knew i needed to get better. I slowly cut back on cardio, slowly added more weights in, and started to eat again. I gained weight back, but i was healthy. Then when i still felt like i wasn't getting better, i removed myself from the gym for about a year and a half. I did beachbody at home workouts to help me focus on me, started to manage my food and take proper supplements and protein. Fall 2014 i knew i wanted to get serious about the gym again. I mastered meal prepping, mastered timed eating and was doing a protein shake post workout for every workout i did. I kept track and knew i was in the right place. i really wanted to start competing and and found a few different trainers, who helped me get on the right path. Now i am with an awesome prep coach and i am on my way to my first bikini competition. I have not been so serious about something since my competition dance days. i know i am going to enjoy this journey and i look forward to it. And i know this site will help me to stay accountable! So that is my story.

It is the greatest stress reliever, the best therapy, and know what kind of day i am, I know that I am one workout away from an excellent day. It is something that i enjoy. Some people have "me" time with television or a glass of wine. To me, my "me" time is when i either lifting or doing cardio. i feel amazing and it really gives me a confidence booster and taught me how to love my body.