Growing up I was the heavy kid who could hang with the boys. I was never fond of having girl friendships - too much drama and BS to deal with. Many people did not understand this and unfortunately, I was teased ALOT - for my weight & being different. In 7th grade my mom put me on weight watchers and I lost 30 pounds. AWESOME! but that created a little devil in my mind that said FOOD IS BAD. I was brought up on fat-free, low-fat, no-fat, chemical **** storms up in there... my favorite FAVORITE drink was diet soda - soooo healthy, ya know? no calories LOL.

In HS i developed an eating disorder - this was the FIRST time i started drinking water bc well all my girlfriends did LOL. My sophomore year I weighed 98 pounds and I am 5'4 - I was bones and skin - I thought I looked great. However, the constant nose bleeds and slicing my knees when I shaved told me other wise. I put on a respectable 15 pounds the next 2 years and thought I was OK. I worked out during HS - cardiiooooooo & played sports.. the more cardio the skinner Lauren will be YAY!

COLLEGE - oh thirsty thursdays, grease trucks & dining halls. Is it okay to miss these things a little bit? LOL. Good ol Rutgers University!! Let's say the freshman 15 is REAL & it went on faster than white on rice. I always have struggled with food, drinking, eating, working out.. i was never FAT (in a few years yes, yes i was lol) but big boned so to speak? just UNHEALTHY & not even realizing it.

Break up #1 - we were dating about 7 years or so, lived together (stupid) but grew apart. I moved home, started dating someone else and well, karma is a ****ing bitch. WORST relationship ever but hey I learned ALOT and grew alot... and this is where i reached my heaviest a whopping 159 lbs - holy cow.. in about 7 months i gained almost 30lbs.

Break up #2 - swore off dating, started working out and following jamie easons live fit. At this time, my family was falling apart - my dad's drinking took over and really got the best of my family. I WOULD NOT allow my emotions to take over and pull me down again. I turned to working out. The more I worked out the better i felt, and when I started seeing results - I FELT HAPPY!! I realized that THIS HERE is the ONE THING i can control about my life - think about it.. what WE DO on a daily basis is what can shape us - not our friends, bfs, parents, children, etc but US.

From there I have participated in 5Ks, beach body programs, spartan races, color runs etc. i LOVE WORKING OUT! I love helping people find their balance and realizing that its OK to fall flat on your face a couple times and suck at life - it HAPPENS.. but just keep going because NO ONE deserves to feel like they are not good enough - i still struggle with this but i am hoping that with time, i can concur this.

If you're still reading - thank you for keeping an interest :)

The feeling I get when seeing transformations in myself. I love helping other people - i just hate if/when people feel intimidated especially women.. COME TALK TO ME! I may seem like a bitch (head phones in, world out) but i promise I am nice and will not bite or judge!

EVERYONE STARTS SOMEWHERE!