I'm fed up with my body controlling me and telling me that I can't do this or I'm too out of shape to do that. Every time I look at a picture of myself I'm disgusted. What is so damn important that I let myself get to this point? I have no good answer. No excuses.

It's time to face the fact that my life may end sooner than I wanted because of the choices I've made. I want to live and be in control of my body, not the other way around.

I don't right now...