I used to be very thin, and worked as a fashion model with my height. That was around age 16-18 and before that I was an ugly duckling and always overweight. When I was thin it was unhealthy and I was classified as underweight but I loved it. Fast forward another couple years and I'm the biggest I've been and am so insecure with my body. I live in a brand new place on the other side of the world and signed up for the gym and only just started getting into working out after having a personal trainer 3 hours a week back home. Anyways, I've been relying purely on having a pretty face while my body has been at its worst. This time I want to get a great body healthily and maintain it.

After I really work hard at the gym, I feel so amazing. I used to absolutely hate exercise, and do anything I could to avoid it/could never find motivation no matter how hard I tried. Now, I find myself going to the gym many mornings and then work my ass off and feel so good about myself after. It increases my confidence and I know in time I will see a difference in my body, I'm still trying to find a workout routine that works for me as I find myself not really knowing what to do while working out and sticking to cardio but I think I'll find my way and I'll figure out how to use most of the machines eventually! What I really want to do is look great in a bikini for Christmas, as that will be my first time seeing my family in 6 months, the longest I've been away from home and I know they would be so happy if I was happy with my body.