I do not like myself being thin. I then seen people twice my size and was jealous.
This caused depression. I want to be a bit more massive.

I want to look like a beast so I can fight against my anxiety and depression. I was small when I was young which tells me I needed to get bigger. To this day I may never stop because I think I am too small. I am really not small, I have body dysmorphic disorder as well. This keeps me motivated enough to complete a work out.
I have grown over the years since high school in which I'm thankful for.