1 1/2 years ago I was determined and focused to be the " most beautiful bride' I possibly could be. I had seen previous pictures of myself at my friends wedding and could not believe the way I looked, so over the course of 6 months I worked and busted my ass and lost 30 lbs. My wedding day was the most special day, not only because I was marrying my best friend but because as someone who has suffered my whole life with weight and self esteem it was the most amazing I have ever looked.
But you know what they say- " Happy Wife- Happy Life" and 26 plus pounds later, I'm back at square one. I can't say I'm entirely upset about gaining the weight back it's been an amazingly stressful first year of marriage. This time around it's a different journey both mentally and physically. The overall goal isn't to look "good" on my wedding day, but to look "good" everyday and be able to celebrate many many more anniversaries. This time I want to look back and see how far I've come and not how much I failed.