I have always ran. In a way, running away. That's how this journey began. I used to run and trail run with my mother as a child. It was one of the few things we had in common. It was something I could rely on, to be , and see through the cobwebs of zombies that do not take a moment to breath/taste in the air. Look up at clouds and sunrays, wind blowing tree limbs and birds gliding. Running was my sanctuary in the physical form where ever I went. I could always take this with me.

I began to take interest in other physical hobbies, mountain climb, skate board, yoga, trail run, kick boxing, biking, hiking, scuba. This became who I was. How could I really breath air unless I was out side, and it fueled.

In later years my mother became very ill (my early teens). We later found out she has a rare disease called Scleroderma. Watching this illness inhabit my mothers body forever changed me. In ways I was not prepared for. I was determined to take care of myself physically and emotionally. By doing so I could take care of her and my younger sibling. So set the course of this life style and journey.

When I finally hit my physical peak (age 31). I began to notice that I was losing the muscle and obvious weight gained soon after. I was at 107 and all my life I weight 90-95. I was devastated, wasn't sure if I was over training. Then I became very sick, for over a month. My immune and body failed me. Always fatigued, aches, my body began to lose muscle (muscle atrophy) . It was time for me to see a Dr and begin blood testing. An autoimmune disease showed up. So I stay on the journey. Work hard to rebuild this body and mind.

Because...Its a reminder that I am alive and I am grateful that I have my 5 senses. My body is a challenge and at times I want to give up but I cant let it psych me out. Because of my health and the events that have domino effected after, I can honestly say I have never felt so connect to ME :) and the spirit of Gaia/and HaShem.