About 2 years ago I got hit by a mini-van. Both me and my bike survived. I had multiple surgeries on my left hand. I will never have the use of two of my fingers. I have always loved to exercise. I have always loved to eat too! After my bike accident, I had tons of physical therapy and surgeries. My son left for two years and it was all too much! I gave up and started eating anything and everything I wanted. I became depressed and I had no motivation. I couldn't push off with my left hand and two of my fingers stick straight out. It made it hard to do the simplest things. Let alone holding weights or exercise handles. I just gave up! In March 2013 I decided I needed to pull myself together and get myself in shape. It was so easy to get out of shape and to put on weight. It is super hard to take off the weight and to get tone and fit! I am still working on my goal. It's an up-hill battle! I will get there!!! It might take me more time than it takes others to reach their goals! I will do it! I will keep going and I will adjust to my new situation!!!
I love exercise! There are many reasons why I love working out! I know this is going to sound bad! But, this is the truth! I love to exercise for a lot of selfish reasons! I exercise so I can focus on me! I can be in the gym with hundreds of people and I don't even know that they are there! It is the one time of the day that I can just focus on me! At the gym I'm in my own little world and I feel free! I can jump on the treadmill or elliptical machine and think about my goals, dreams or just escape reality! I know you are thinking I'm crazy!!! How can I not see all the Barbie dolls at the gym or notice the buff hunks? Well, I only have so much time at the gym and I need it to be my time! When I do my weight training my focus is on the muscle I'm working at that time. I get so excited to go to the gym! I think about it all day long! I execute each rep the best that I can! I exert myself and I try my best each and every time! I know what I look like. I know I'm not a Barbie doll and I know I'm not a sexy beast. I know I have a lot of weight/fat to lose still. I know I am not as tone as I would love to be. I know that my body is not attractive to others! I don't have an inflated self-image! I know this is my body and I'm very lucky to have it! I could've been killed when I got hit about 2 years ago! I love to work out! I love to go to the gym and push myself! I love to build my muscles and watch my body get stronger! I love to feel healthy and strong! That is why I work out!!!