winning
OVERALL RATING
Pic left- smiling cause I am proud. Smiling cause I am right where I needed to be in that part of my journey to the stage. Smiling because I can taste the cupcakes waiting for me at the finish line...not smiling because I am HAPPY....and not NOT happy but a different kind of happiness....to achieve the left I could never live the way I am right now on the right. The left took endless hours of rigid dedication to a plan. Every second of every minute of every day of each week into all the months - everything mattered and there was no room for excuses. There was no room for anything more than the task at hand...and I wouldn't have changed it for the world because it was a CHOICE I made towards something I was unconditionally passionate about at that point. I was okay living isolated in a world that wasn't going to stop and wait for me to finish. Hungry and tired became routine emotions and I adjusted because again I CHOSE to do this- whatever it took to achieve whatever I desired. There was moments of happiness that were only correlated to my aesthetic- wake up see a new line, winning.....make it through another day, winning.....doing what I said I was going to do, winning. These pics are just over a year apart. The goals are different but the discipline towards MY current plan is still the same. I don't wake up each day running to the scale or mirror to check out changes because half the time I'm too sore to even roll out of bed due to yesterday's PR's AND because looking aesthetically perfect is no longer the goal. I may not be smiling in the pic on the right (but that's likely because I have been accustomed to these Sunday morning sleep ins and 6 am felt early) but I am genuinely HAPPY......wake up eager to train to get STRONGER, winning.....actively making memories with those that stood by the girl on the right, winning.....exploring and learning as I wake to live another day of this beautiful LIFE, winning ........doing what I said I was going to do, winning.