late night rambles
OVERALL RATING
People assume that because you appear 'invincible' you don't feel on their level. I am probably the most secure insecure person I have ever met. Put me in a backwards flat beak, some #FNF joggers, a pair of stank *** Nikes and a tank and nothing, nobody can slow my flow BUT ask me to step outside my mainstream into everyone else's and I can feel the walls of 'self confidence ' close in on me. I can't really put into words the why's or how comes because it is not as though I'm an introvert by any means. I love people, I love meeting people, I love talking and smiling and laughing until I pee with people. Maybe it's the fear of others rejection before they have time to realize who I really am. Ive been told I'm intimidating until I open my mouth and then I'm infectious. Maybe this suffocation I find myself consumed with comes from a little of that. It's hard for us to see ourselves the way others do because we are so used to seeing our own reflection, and sometimes when that reflection is battling self love we can't fathom how any other's view of us could be outside of how we see ourselves. Building confidence doesn't necessarily require taking huge leaps into uncomfortable territory. Small baby steps slowly outside your circle of comfort work to. Wearing shorts in public, letting your hair down, saying hi to that guy that catches your eye, walking in that door you had been avoiding for years, looking up instead of down, smiling....all of these suffice. Note to self: mirrors are just glass and you are so much more than just glass.... #workinprogress #lovetheskinyourin #beyoutiful #morethanyourreflection