mid day ramblings
OVERALL RATING
I read a controversial post the other day that spoke along the lines of 'skinny' people having no right to complain about insecurities over their appearance.... That it angered those that were truly struggling with obesity....It made me think: I have no idea what it feels like to be obese. Even on my heaviest days I was never close to becoming that.... But I do know what's it's like to cringe in the skin you're in...to emotionally binge my feelings away in the pantry closet and then spend my night sleeping by the toilet....I know what it's like to never feel 'perfect' enough, pretty enough, skinny enough, small enough.....good enough. I know what it's like to wake up uncomfortable with your morning reflection. I know what it's like to go to bed at night anxious and exhausted due to the extreme efforts (starving, purging, excessive cardio, belly wraps, diet pills, cleanses, etc.) I've taken during the day in hopes of maybe waking up comfortable with my morning reflection...... ......And I didn't need to be overweight to feel like this. Body issues/dysmorphia come in all shapes and sizes, all colors and cultures, both men and women. Regardless of whether they feel 'fat' and you see skinny, they feel soft and you see shredded, they feel bad and you think their life is all good......BIG or SMALL, body shaming someone else is the result of ones internal insecurities towards their own external appearance.......and Anyone who feels good on the inside would never wish to make someone else feel bad about their outside! #thinkbeforeyouspeak/write/post This was my very first selfie I ever took and sent to my first coach, unflexed, clueless as to what my potential could be, miserable and sad with how I looked, hungry and literally spinning my days away in hopes of one day loving this reflection.......and this is 3.5 years later. Far from where I once was, happy with where I am, hungry to see just what else I can be....and loving the skin I'm in.