real talk
OVERALL RATING
#realtalk Yesterday was mental health awareness... To me everyday is an awareness day as this has become part of who I am. 9 times out of 10 I DO NOT have my **** together. Every morning is a guessing game for me as to whether or not I will stand tall or will this be the day I fall down? I have insane OCD tendencies that often set the pace for my life. I can be the highlight of the party one minute and then disappear into hibernation for days. I love being around people.....And then I hate being around people. For a long time I relied on my medicine cabinet to aide in the roller coaster of emotions I was going through. But I have 3 little reasons that required me to find a different way....I have come to realize that I no longer need to hide from the depression, the anxiety, the suffocation that I tried so desperately to cover up for years. I have accepted it as simply another perfect imperfection that makes me, me. There is no shame in not ALWAYS having your **** together... The only person that ever expects you to be perfect is YOU. I take each day with gratitude and appreciation, completely aware that not everyday will be good but that there will always be something good in each day. I use lifting to lift me up, I take advantage of supportive shoulders who reassure me that I'm human and I write.... Every thought, all the time, I write it all down... Whether it's through a social media forum, the notes app on this phone or my little black journal at the side of my bed... I write. I have Seasonal Affective Disorder.... But it does not have me... #speakout #fuckdepression