not conventionally beautiful
OVERALL RATING
It's funny how the society we live in each day can be. As women we are continually bombarded with messages about loving the skin we are in. And then when we do, we are berated for being too confident which in turn results in ridicule and body shaming from strangers or worse not strangers, but the ones who initially told us to start loving ourselves more to begin with. If we start to act proud about the transformations, the transitions, the triumphs we are experiencing, we are suddenly arrogant, attention seeking or simply showing off. Along time ago I chose to no longer embrace the ignorance of others. Rather I work to enhance the love for myself and all that being the best version of me can offer to this world. I am not your 'conventional' image of beauty. I have a double chin most days. My eyes are not symmetrical and I am at constant war with blemished skin. But at the risk of seeming immodest, I have come to the realization that I am my very own kind of beautiful. Physically I am tall, muscular, blonde and on most days I can stare at my reflection in these non-symetrical eyes and feelâ¦well pretty about the woman I have grown to become. An exterior holds no value if the interior is nothing but ugly therefore I do believe that my crazy, beautifully chaotic, unpredictable and emotional personality compensates for whatever 'conventional beauty' my exterior lacks. I'm not living to be, look, act, feel any more superior than that of any other woman or man for that matter, this is just me- real and raw for no one else but myself , sharing it with anyone who so 'chooses' to watch, learning to love all my imperfections, building my temple with shapes and lines and embracing....yes embracing the beautiful possibility of someday....just maybe..... a confident woman of variety rather than a passive woman of conventionality will be the norm.