So i stopped taking so many selfies and refraining from post workout photos everyday. I stopped posting to my IG and all because i feel like im sharing more for validation than any other reason. Used to be because i was a fitness coach, but since im full time at the port, i dont have time to do coaching anymore. So it became more of a "look at me" habit. I came to the conclusion that i needed to learn how to love myself without the validation of others. This is the last place i have that i share my progress but thats only because i truly feel i share something in common with you all in this world of fitness. So i do appreciate you all for your support over the years through all of my changes, failures and growth. Yall are an awesome community and I really hope they update this app and keep it open. Idk what id do without yall. Might even start to give up without your motivation.

Happy Tuesday.

I’m going the wrong direction. Checking in at 208.3 lbs. My goal was to be 200 by Memorial Day. Doubt that ones going to happen. At least the mirror looks half way decent.

C-section pain today,but it made me think of a funny situation. 1st c-section fully numb feeling of sitting on a stove burning Vs. 2 c-sections only numbed in one area. Scared the doctor because I could feel my legs/move them. Turned to my husband, " I am never doing this again." You want more babies to go find another woman.🤣 " My OBGYN, so you want a third kid in the future, " Me- "No,you sound like my dad." I am still on the surgey table.😅