My son actually is a personal trainer, and after busting my chops for months I relented and both he & I were suprised, " he didn`t think or remember I used to be pretty athletic" and after years of working and not doing some of the things I enjoyed when I was younger I picked it back up, I played organized Hockey for 13 years and was in great condition for a long time, and now It is a inward motivation to get in the type of shape I had when I was 30, am motivated enthuased and ambitious, I`ll do what it takes aside from any mood or mind altering substances, I had enough of those {substances} for a lifetime, I abused my privaleges and have been Clean & sober for 24 years, Reality as difficult as it may be is significantly better to deal with than escaping into a real life Dante`s inferno type of Hell, not that it has not crossed my mind I just have not chosen to go back and I am grateful, Yes I have stories and like anyone else I will share and tell you the honest truth So never feel as though you can not ask me anything, or share if you CHOOSE-My Personal heroes and motivation as I grow older ! My mom is definitely #1 she raised my sister & I by herself with no handouts and no complaints, showed an inner strength to overcome and adapt and I miss her greatly, She raised us old school, always shelter, food and an unending Love, I truly did tell her everything I needed to before she went home, My Father and from what I remember of him, he died when I was 8, and what he overcame, He was a top turret gunner on a b-17 Flying Fortress in the 8Th in WWII flew 35 combat missions Bronze Star, Distinguished Air Medal "Just a boy from America" and did the best he could with his family ! He died slumped over the steering wheel of his car from alcoholism, the day my mom & him finalized their divorce I have no resentments and certainly no regrets towards my parents, I feel blessed and fortunate to be their Son
I feel energized, sometimes it`s scary the energy, I like the way I look without being arrogant, just a confidence within knowing that anything can be accomplished with hard work dedication, eating right and although trial & error are part of it, living a healthy life is a wonderful experience, and although I am far from perfect, I am further away from the Life I led at one time, alwys striving and working towards better