How I Started
Apr 2019: I finally started and actually finished this challenge and I'm shocked to say the least. I don't want to talk about my personal issues on my Instagram page because my 16 year old daughter follows me and I've been suppressing my true feelings there and just trying to keep it positive but I'm going to let it out here since she doesn't see this page. The beginning of this year was very challenging for me. I had to go thru a home and back ground inspection for a possible placement of my niece to move from California to Miami, this really took a toll on me given she's only 5 years old and the thought of the drama she and our family was going to go thru hit me heavy. During this same time my husband of 19 years and I were calling it quits and as of today we are separated and starting the divorce process (more stress to come), he's been in and out of our home. Our beautiful 11 year old girl (turned of age Jan. 23) has Autism and ADHD and it's a challenge. She also has a cyst on the side of her head and a swollen gland that I found washing her hair (she's taking antibiotics) and that has me extremely nervous but I have faith. There's a possibility she may need to also have her tonsils removed.
Thankfully she is a sweet loving girl and loves me to pieces. My 16 year old had her 1st boyfriend (they broke up though). My older niece was diagnosed with multiple medical issues. I was working part-time since I have to care for my girls and I lost my job a few weeks ago so I'm unemployed. It's just been a whirlwind 4 months. I've cried in the shower so many times so no one at home notices. I know that good things come from turbulent moments so I will keep pushing thru. There's always a light at the end of the tunnel. Started this transformation challenge which has been a real challenge in my life but in all honesty this has been my gateway from all the things going on. Without this challenge I don't know where I will be today. This challenge has made me feel stronger today than I did before. I made it and I will keep pushing thru and fighting for my well being and happiness. Sorry to bombard you with my stress but putting it out releases something in me that will help me move forward.Thank you!! :)XO
Jan 2019: They say third times a charm! I mentally prepped myself for 3 months up to this date when I officially started my transformation both mentally and physically. It's been an exhausting year... Car accident, relationship challenges, the possibility of having to foster my niece, so more things... My weight is making my body ache. I'm tired and I never want to do anything but stay home which sucks especially when you have a 10 and 16 year old. Many times I've felt an overwhelm depression and it makes me not care for things that are important which is a big problem... I hope 2019 brings more positivism in my life and for all of those around me.
2018: Signed up and gave up :(
2016: Signed up and gave up :(
Why I Love it
I love working out because it relieves my stress, it makes me feel good when I see myself working hard (even though I don't see the results I should), and most of all I can definitely feel myself getting stronger. I was fit many years ago, I'm talking over 16 years ago so I know what it feels like to be fit and you feel alive...confident...strong...happy and you constantly ask yourself "Why did I waste so many years to feel this way, why didn't I do this sooner?" Even knowing this, I still gave up after having children.
If you are overweight and still feel great, energetic and pain-free, then that's a great thing, but if you are overweight and you feel sad, lazy, your feet, bones and muscles hurt, you never want to do anything, avoiding people, high blood pressure among other things then a change for a better feeling you is highly needed.