Once you realize you can control your body's appearance, after what feels like a life long battle with hatred for yourself, and your body-- you feel like a superhero with amazing power and strength.
I got sick of hating what I saw in the mirror, I got sick of being sick of looking at my body. When you are fat and unhealthy, and hate being that way, your entire mental health and well being is compromised. I struggled with deep clinical depression, addiction to food, anxiety, anger... everything you can think of that comes along with being fat and unhappy. It's like a "gateway drug for the harder stuff" to put it in an analogy. When your fat, it is just the beginning of a spiral out of control for other unhealthy extremeties mentally and physically. I got a job at Gold's Gym in 09 and became completely, insanely fascinated with the gym lifestyle and how passionate people were... and HOW THEY LOOKED.
I started working out to "get thin." Then I saw my body start to completely transform. And I became obsessed with the "muscular look" My body Yo-yo'ed at times, yes.
That's when I realized it's mostly diet and a mix of supplementation too.
And now I am hooked.
I am too far gone to go back. This is my life and I have built it around being a meat head.
I have completely transformed my mental health, physical health... and I am more passionate than I have ever been about anything in my life-- which of course pours over into other areas of my life. Just a total life makeover.
The reward is worth the sacrifice.
You work your ass off at work just to pay bills, buy a little luxuries here and there... but never really see a major reward for your hard work.
You work your ass off in the gym, you can see your hard work pay off as long as you want it to. No one can take it away.
The blood, sweat and tears you put into it is more than just an appearance.
Looking physically fit is a sign of strength, motivation, and will power. These are things 9 out of 10 people don't possess and can't be to look like you.
It's power, it's passion, it's bigger than you.
It's obsession. It's sex appeal.
It's has changed my life.
I could never go back to the way I looked before.