i was to the point where my weight was killing me was not happy how i looked I âve been over weight since I was 10 years old all through school but high school was tough being bigger then all your classmates is embarrassing but on the other hand people would not pick on me I was bigger then them so they where scared of me, afraid if I would sit on them I would kill them and must of the girls at that age donât like big boys, being over weight and acting like everything is fine was hard I would smile and act like nothing was wrong but many times I was depressed I would try try to loss weight but nothing I would workout at the school gym and sometimes walk at the track even in the winter, I would loss a few pounds but gain them back, losing weight was a battle for me that must of the time I would loss I have battled with over weight for a long time, food is an addiction that many people donât believe that food can be addicting it can be addicting like a drug that kills you slow and over time from the inside out over weight lends to many bad thing form diseases to depression to hating yourself and leads to death. When I was in high school I weighed 360 when I got out of high school it got worse at the age of 21 I weighed 420 pounds the most I have ever weighed it was bad it got to the point where I would get tired quick when I would sleep my parents would tell me I would have trouble breathing sometimes I would feel pains in my chest ever time I would go to the doctors they would always tell me to lose weight but being over weight makes you lazy not care not give a **** about anything as long as I could eat anything I felt good but that was a lie I would eat when I was sad, bored happy anytime even If I was not hunger if I saw food and it looked good I would eat it, if that is not an addiction I donât know what you would call that, I got to the point where I needed to do something I would look in the mirror and not like what I saw how can you live life hating yourself s o I started slowly to eat better I started to workout and I started to see changes so I kept going kept eating better and kept working out I would say to myself **** my excuses **** my excuses so **** your excuses because how can it be that you have 5 hours to watch tv but donât have 30min to workout , I think what many people think that if they workout for 3 months that they are going to get the body they have always wanted many people want results quick and if they donât see them they quite I was like that , people have to understand that it takes time and will power to get where you want to get, you didnât gain all the weight you have over 3 months you gained it over the years so its going to take the some time to get raid of it, trust me when I tell you that working out and eating better makes you feel better more alive with more energy less tired and give you more self confidence I hope my journey can help you in some way and motivate you to get up and move and reach that goal stop making excuses and start working for a better you look in the mirror everyday and say **** my excuses