I always had self imaging issues since elementary school and never felt like I was good enough in my family's, athletic friends, and (especially) the lady's eyes. It wasn't until I hit my Senior year in high school I sort of felt okay about myself being one of the strongest in the school and yet I still felt I had too much flab. After my mother passed at the end of the school year I felt like partying and working out was all I wanted to do until I found myself in a relationship a few months later. Thats where I finished working out in 2010 and went from 220 lbs with a decent amount of muscle (nothing like a bodybuilder) to 290 pounds in the beginning of 2016. My 5 1/2 year relationship to my fiancee ended and I fell apart. I developed anxiety and depression that have stuck with me since. She refused to talk to me and I never felt more disgusted with myself. I stopped eating almost entirely for close to a month and a half and mostly only consumed alcohol. It wasnt until around summer I discovered I dropped around 30 pounds from not eating and going on 3 mile walks with my German Shepherd often. I rejoined my old gym and made further progress and started to eat (healthy at that). I actually started to feel good about myself and body reaching a low of 210 pounds. By the end of October I got in a car accident that made it so I was unable to go to the gym for almost 2 months. Then the most amazing and wonderful thing happened to me in the middle of December. My high school crush messaged me out of the blue. She looked just as good as when I first saw her in high school. We instantly clicked like it truely was meant to be. I'd go on to continue workingout here and there but most of the time was spent with her. She got pregnant in mid 2017 and I all together stopped workingout again. By the beginning of 2019, I reached 340 pounds. I needed to change and get on the right path of health and fitness for my girlfriend and my daughter. I renewed my gym membership on Janruary 1st, 2019 and I dropped down to 280 as of today. I'd like to reach all the way down to 210 by my wedding next year.