Sorry guys, I could not help myself. This is my nephews new baby girl Brooklynn. 😍 It has been so long since I have held a newborn. ❤

Feeling “not good enough” lately...in many areas of life. But i guess at least I’m typing this from the elliptical? Smetmes you push down what you want so often, you cant get in touch with what you want any longer. Well, this is one thing ive wanted and for the oast year ive been in control of it—not perdect!! But in control. Finding out just how much is out if my control and it hurts. A lot of hurting right now. But hey, maybe i can channel that back into this work. Balance is hard. PS what should i be when i grow up? Lol. No one wants me for anything lucrative. In a holding pattern once more. Everything is shite except when ive completed a WO. A few brief shining moments of satisfaction. Then it’s shite again. OK misery done. Will post HIIT in scant moments (well, 21 more minutes to go)...

Okay, FitFam. This boat is about to set sail, and I have 69 days to prepare for my first competition. I am signing off until March 2, but I will come back tan and ripped! I will miss you classy animals! Make me proud till we meet again!