Not surrounded by as many during this middle of the night... I wonder who was around the corner last night, they have held people down from coming near me several times over the years🤔 hmm well ive been doing all my lifting during these hours since its not as crowded. Im pretty rhankful for muscle memory😎 i can get away with many moves due to that specific memory without getting injured🤗

My post cardio look lol

Last night was pull day. And 40 minutes cardio. A couple snaps of what some of the the movements were.

In a splash of self realization ive come to the possible conclusion that the reason I became addicted to working out is due to my glutinous need for self improvement. It used to be the need to improve myself mentally & emotionally. but, because I feel so out of control in that aspect, I found it easier to control the improvements on the outside than i did the inside. Thus the constant feeling to continuously and maliciously destroy and rebuild different muscle groups, while complacently allowing my mind to go wild because my time is dedicated to self improvement elsewhere. I never hide i suffer from issues. Something many men try to hide. Im no stranger to the fact of my brokeness. The more I realize I have many areas of and within myself that require self improvement, the more room I give myself to grow.