Just became part of my everday life, after my wife became disabled from a major stroke @ 45, one day after I had asked her for a divorce,she spent 15 days in ICU at a 50/50 coin toss living or dying, 20 days in CCU and then 15 more before release to rehab 400 miles from me, I visited her every single day she was in the hospital, and drove the miles on the weekends, arriving @ 3 Am and leaving Sun to get back @ 8 or 9 PM go to bed and get to work, she had to learn how to walk and talk all over again and go through hellish rehab that I would not wish on anyone, I am still with her and have not left her side after almost 3 years since her stroke !it has been an eye opening as well as a learning experience with many ups & downs & a myriad of wonderful experiences where we laugh like fools and almost pee our selves, for virtually no reason, I have had the benefit of dealing with some of the Elite Professionals in the Medical Field that helped her survive ! It has been an uphill walk since, that we both share with all the Good bad & ugly, and I generally am in a mood where hope & promise are more prevalent than doubt and despair, I am keenly aware as to how fragile life is and I do not try and waste a a day, one minute whatever differences 2 may have can change in an instant literally & I do not suffer fools, regardless of title degree or so called stature I would rather be honest (direct) than play a guessing game and read mysteries within people, I am not Politically correct in any way, I have issues like anyone else, my character defects as well as the things in my head and my REALITY, it is not easy and at times I am quite Exhausted and lonely, But the reality is I have to get up off my ass and do it, I am forever grateful to have been Born and raised in this Magnificent Country The United States of America, and I never apologize nor minimize this nation and have zero issue with defending it and or debating the Promise it holds, after my wife`s stroke I was even more motivated to get in shape, and after reading a great deal as well as seeing in the gym, guys that are my age or older who are in supreme condition, If they can do it so can I is my attitude,It has nothing to do with vanity more along the lines of sanity, I want to have fun as long as there is breath in me, I know reality can be stark and seemingly cruel, however the flipside can be overwhelmingly joyus and instantly I forget some of the things that are difficult and that happens everyday! however I can deal with either or and live with whatever is thrown at me, my outlook determines my attitude !