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My son actually is a personal trainer, and after busting my chops for months I relented and both he & I were suprised, " he didn`t think or remember I used to be pretty athletic" and after years of working and not doing some of the things I enjoyed when I was younger I picked it back up, I played organized Hockey for 13 years and was in great condition for a long time, and now It is a inward motivation to get in the type of shape I had when I was 30, am motivated enthuased and ambitious, I`ll do what it takes aside from any mood or mind altering substances, I had enough of those {substances} for a lifetime, I abused my privaleges and have been Clean & sober for 24 years, Reality as difficult as it may be is significantly better to deal with than escaping into a real life Dante`s inferno type of Hell, not that it has not crossed my mind I just have not chosen to go back and I am grateful, Yes I have stories and like anyone else I will share and tell you the honest truth So never feel as though you can not ask me anything, or share if you CHOOSE-My Personal heroes and motivation as I grow older ! My mom is definitely #1 she raised my sister & I by herself with no handouts and no complaints, showed an inner strength to overcome and adapt and I miss her greatly, She raised us old school, always shelter, food and an unending Love, I truly did tell her everything I needed to before she went home, My Father and from what I remember of him, he died when I was 8, and what he overcame, He was a top turret gunner on a b-17 Flying Fortress in the 8Th in WWII flew 35 combat missions Bronze Star, Distinguished Air Medal "Just a boy from America" and did the best he could with his family ! He died slumped over the steering wheel of his car from alcoholism, the day my mom & him finalized their divorce I have no resentments and certainly no regrets towards my parents, I feel blessed and fortunate to be their Son
Why I Love It:
I feel energized, sometimes it`s scary the energy, I like the way I look without being arrogant, just a confidence within knowing that anything can be accomplished with hard work dedication, eating right and although trial & error are part of it, living a healthy life is a wonderful experience, and although I am far from perfect, I am further away from the Life I led at one time, alwys striving and working towards better
How I Stay Motivated:
Just became part of my everday life, after my wife became disabled from a major stroke @ 45, one day after I had asked her for a divorce,she spent 15 days in ICU at a 50/50 coin toss living or dying, 20 days in CCU and then 15 more before release to rehab 400 miles from me, I visited her every single day she was in the hospital, and drove the miles on the weekends, arriving @ 3 Am and leaving Sun to get back @ 8 or 9 PM go to bed and get to work, she had to learn how to walk and talk all over again and go through hellish rehab that I would not wish on anyone, I am still with her and have not left her side after almost 3 years since her stroke !it has been an eye opening as well as a learning experience with many ups & downs & a myriad of wonderful experiences where we laugh like fools and almost pee our selves, for virtually no reason, I have had the benefit of dealing with some of the Elite Professionals in the Medical Field that helped her survive ! It has been an uphill walk since, that we both share with all the Good bad & ugly, and I generally am in a mood where hope & promise are more prevalent than doubt and despair, I am keenly aware as to how fragile life is and I do not try and waste a a day, one minute whatever differences 2 may have can change in an instant literally & I do not suffer fools, regardless of title degree or so called stature I would rather be honest (direct) than play a guessing game and read mysteries within people, I am not Politically correct in any way, I have issues like anyone else, my character defects as well as the things in my head and my REALITY, it is not easy and at times I am quite Exhausted and lonely, But the reality is I have to get up off my ass and do it, I am forever grateful to have been Born and raised in this Magnificent Country The United States of America, and I never apologize nor minimize this nation and have zero issue with defending it and or debating the Promise it holds, after my wife`s stroke I was even more motivated to get in shape, and after reading a great deal as well as seeing in the gym, guys that are my age or older who are in supreme condition, If they can do it so can I is my attitude,It has nothing to do with vanity more along the lines of sanity, I want to have fun as long as there is breath in me, I know reality can be stark and seemingly cruel, however the flipside can be overwhelmingly joyus and instantly I forget some of the things that are difficult and that happens everyday! however I can deal with either or and live with whatever is thrown at me, my outlook determines my attitude !
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Strictly an amateur
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I never go along with the crowd, never have, I am honest, not arrogant and try not to be a fool, I appreciate life and all that God has given me, this opportunity "LIFE", it`s my responsibility to experience as much as I can while here, ETERNITY is a long time and my eternity is sealed, my life here is yet to be determined or fulfilled
John 14:6
Romans 12 :2
Ephesians 6:13
"The Lord is my rock,my fortress and my deliverer, my God is my rock, in whom shall I take refuge"
To transform add and to define my body, to be able to feel and look like I was in my 30`s
Goal (Long):
Shred Define & transform, absolute committment 5-6 days per week, Healthy Diet, which 90% of the time I do, the dedication and vision I have for myself, with help and hard work, honesty and preperation, absolute laser focus, my refuge "GYM" from the everday non-sense that happens, my Goal which I started aknew the 1st of Febuary and ends Dec 1st of this year is doable and not so far off the charts it makes it impossible to achieve & as to whether or not I am a canidate for a Calvin Klein ad remains to be seen and to actually compete who knows !
It has been an interesting journey to say the least, Living Life on lifes terms without a Chemical escape, not that it hasn`t Crossed my mind, and had someone told me I would think, feel and go through Life and all it`s up`s & downs without being Drunk or High in the last 24 years I...
Yes, I am getting ready for school...that part is sorta carefree I guess. The teaching part is nothing but carefree though. Glad to hear you are working hard.
I am still training despite getting ready for school. Reps and weight have increased. Just waiting to see it on the body. How is your training coming along!!!! Are you family trainers still pushing you hard? <smile>