real talk. late night rambles lol
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so i always try to be 100% real with you guys so i decided to write this little post about some of my feelings and stuff im going through. so i get a lot of people asking me if im single or saying whatever guy is with me is so lucky. but tbh ive never been in any sort if serious relationship and constantly am ending up alone. now part if the reason for this was and (still is a little) is my insecurities. when i wasnt happy with myself and the way i looked i would seek attention from anyone who would give me it. i would do anything for any guy who pretended to give a **** about me. These issues honestly ended only about a couple months ago, i now am able to say no and be confident about who i am not feel the need to please every guy and continuously get played and end up broken. i really know as corny and repetitive as it sounds but working out has been a major outlet for me through my pains and weaknesses i feel myself coming out on top and my confidence is through the freakin roof! in my eyes my body is beautiful and nobody can take that away from me. So many times i let guys decide whether or not i was "hot" enough or skinny enough or however the fuckk they saw me instead of looking in the mirror and being like "**** im hot and i don't give a **** what the next person has to say!" lol. Every second I've spent in the gym lifting, sweating and just simply working my asss off has given me so much confidence that i am able to just share so much and for that i am extremely thankfyl. hope yall had an awesome humpday and sorry for all these feelings up in my post. haha goodnight.