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I have constantly struggled with my body. When I was in Middle School I began binging and reached 130lbs, then as my sister went through an anorexia-stage, I began to feel bad about my body, although I was "normal weight". I began to exercise excessively and stopped eating. After about a year I had lost all the weight and was pushing 95lbs with not enough fat on me to have a period.
Two years later, after hospitalizations, I have returned to the Binge-Eating-Disorder behaviors and gained back the weight. I'm unhappy about my body, again! This time I want to do it right, and end this war at last.
Why I Love It:
How it makes me feel afterwards - because right now doing it is difficult. When I "complete" a workout or a meal plan I feel empowered to carve my future.
How I Stay Motivated:
Sometimes I think - why "wouldn't I want to do this" and just think of some frivolous reason: "I don't want to get up in the morning, it's not working faster." If I just notice how shallow all of these excuses are - its all the motivation I need.
Once I get in the gym - I get "in the zone" unfortunately this sometimes leads me to overdue it a bit.
Working on finding other way also (not everything works all the time), I would love some advice!!!!
BB Accomplishments:
Although they may not be "professional body-building accomplishments" (for example contests) I've been able to stop binging, become about 3x stronger, gain 10lbs of lean mass while maintaining weight, and get over depression and body-criticism (the best accomplishment of all.)
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When it comes to coping with things - It's all about concentrating really really hard on being distracted.
Last Updated: Nov 19, 2007 4:18am
Progress Pictures
Nov 12, 2006
Apr 26, 2007
I am138lbs in this picture, although you can't see it.
Continue to express myself, even though at times I'm not the angel my parents wanted me to be.
Goal (Long):
I want to develop a healthier lifestyle that not only incorporates both my physical health, but my mental, social, and emotional one as well. My goal at this time is to start a physical training routine that involves doing 1 hours of lifting 5 times a week and cardio 1 hours 7 days a week.
So...it's been a long time since I have posted anything on my BodyBlog...so I might just have to do some catch up. My life has really improved, in general, not just in my fitness level. I am frustrated at the momment with my school's academics beacuse they cannot provide me with the...
You have made a great step just by seeing the problem and doing something about it. This sport , with just a little determination will give you discipline, increase your selfesteem, better overall heath and of course a great body. Keep it up !!!
SAM
Even though it is you who must work through your problems you will receive so much support here on Bodybuilding.com from all of the members that it may amaze you and I hope that you are able to find inspiration from it. I wish you much success and hope that you find the strength and motivation that you need to conquer this once and for all.
We are with you.
Good luck on your journey, sounds like you are on the right track to losing the weight in a healthy way! :) I used to eat way too little and not clean and eating many small, clean means works better - don't be afraid to eat..and rest! :)
sounds like you are on the right track dont get discouraged over how much you eat those clean foods will process much better than the junkie stuff i eat 6 meals through out the day sometimes 7 as long as you keep up your routine in the gym you should have no problem getting the look you are working for....stay strong!!
This is very inspiring! It's always better to do it the right way! I wish you luck on all your successes! You'll be just fine sweetheart! Dun give up! :D
