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"To compete next year in Figure, to become a certified PT, and look incredible for my 53rd b-day in 5 months! I do this for me and NO ONE ELSE! Not here to hook up, someone has my heart!"
Personal Info And Background:
Real Name:
"P"
Sex:
Female
Age:
52
Location:
United States
Occupation:
Nurse/Chiropractic assistant, and mother of a 25 and 22 yo.
Personal Website:
Gym:
Home
Gym Location:
In North Dakota!
When I Started:
Nov, 2006
How I Started:
Why I Love It:
I don't always, but I love the way I feel after a good work out and the way my body looks.
How I Stay Motivated:
I am 27 years clean and sober. I have always been a very private person but as I was reflecting on the past years I’ve decided to share a brief history of how I became who and what I am today…the events that have driven me to become and continue to become the best human being I can be!
I was born into poverty to a violent alcoholic father and an abusive mother. My father was twenty years older than my mother, she was 19 when I was born. I am the eldest of 4 girls. I was not a wanted child by my mother, I know this because she told me I was the product of her “doing her duty” as a wife and that she would never love me. I was never held, hugged or kissed as a child by my parents. I was molested at age 4 by a relative that was staying with us. I told my mother and she accused me of being a slut (I didn’t even know what that meant at the time) and beat me with a belt for “teasing” him. I was responsible for caring for my almost 3 yr old sister and when she was kidnapped from our yard my mother beat me and told me I was never to tell anyone that I was babysitting her. She lied to my father and the police. They did find my sister 14 hours later. She had been molested and left on a bridge in downtown Mpls.
I never had friends growing up because I wasn’t allowed to. I never learned social skills as a child however I did excel in school, until I reached junior high. I was 11 ½ when I got into 7th grade. I had all of the household and childcare responsibilities and still trying to get homework done (which was impossible with all my responsibilities). My mother felt it was time I started paying room and board so she got me a babysitting job after school..3-midnite for $20.00 a week caring for 6 small children, she collected the money from me every Friday night when I got home. A typical weekday was get up at 4:30 cook breakfast for my dad, pack his and my mom’s lunch, wash up the dishes then get my sisters up and fix their breakfast , pack lunches, help them get dressed, wash the dishes sweep the kitchen floor then get everyone to school and my baby sister to the sitter.
I would come home everyday beat up so the school made arrangements for me to arrive 15 late in the morning and leave 15 minutes early at the end of the day. Why was this happening? We were one of the 1st schools to be integrated for desegregation…8 black students were bused to our school. I became good friends with them….not something you did back then or in my neighborhood. The kids in my neighborhood beat me for that reason. I discovered drugs at that point and starting using to get rid of my feelings of pain an worthlessness, I also started to drink….my grades were slipping quickly and the school didn’t know what to do with me, I was a bloody mess most of the time from being attacked in the hallways or the girls bathroom. I was raped that year and told no one (it wasn’t like it is today), my mother beat for ruining my clothes from “fighting”. When I got into high school, I was 15...I was transferred out of my district because the school where I lived didn’t want me…the principal said I was too much trouble and they didn’t want “my kind” in their school. I went t to the guidance counselor in my new school and asked for help regarding my home life…she took me to Family and Children Services but back then they scheduled home appoints…not surprise visits. They said after talking to my mom that I was the problem….my counselor told me off the record that if she was me she’d take her chances in the street. So I did, my 3rd week in 10th grade I ran away from home and never looked back. I moved in with a man 10 yrs older than me and we were married illegally. I had all false documents…my life was ok for awhile but my usage was escalating I tried to kill myself 3 times and was intercepted every time. To shorten the rest of the long story…I left my abusive husband and moved to another state, did 3 years of high school in 50 hours and passed my GED with high scores in 1980...I fought to get into college for an additional 11 years because the nursing programs didn’t want me with my background, I wasn’t socially acceptable! The wrong background etc. I did finally after agreeing to 2 psych evals. Get into one of the toughest nursing programs. I was remarried in 1982 and had 2 small children by the time I got into college, I was working nights as a CNA. I commuted 100 miles round trip every day, worked nights and still took care of my kids, I don’t remember when I slept. I graduated and passed my boards.
I have had a lot of things happen in my life that have made me a stronger compassionate human being, do I regret them…absolutely not! There are many things I’m not proud of and horrible things that have happened to me, that should never happen to any human being…however if I were to change even one second of the past I would not be who, what, and where I am today! I am not looking for pity or sympathy, just acceptance as a person. I am a grateful recovering addict/alcoholic.
This is my main motivation….and when I feel like I can’t push any more I just look back and say “YES I CAN!” Positive people encourage me, negative people challenge me to want to be even better…my adult children who are proud of me and the people I meet and have met on this site!
BB Accomplishments:
Personal accomplishments. Sports were not available to females when I was growing up, so I have no background like most females. I started from SCRATCH Nov. 30, 2006, 1 month before my 50th b-day. Built some muscle and dropped some BF without a gym membership or trainer!
Forum Signature:
"A rock pile ceases to be a rock pile the moment a single man contemplates it, bearing within him the image of a cathedral" _Antoine de Saint-Exupery
Last Updated: Apr 11, 2008 11:19am
Progress Pictures
Nov 30, 2006
Jun 30, 2008
This was the day I made the decision to take control of my body and get fit!
I'm thinking not too bad after no lifting for 4 weeks then restricted lifting until 2 weeks ago! LOL
To compete next year in Figure, to become a certified PT, and look incredible for my 53rd b-day in 5 months! I do this for me and NO ONE ELSE! Not here to hook up, someone has my heart!
Hey mama:-) I bet u did have an audience that's hot!!! I think u r very talented and u deserve the attention for ur hard work!!! My holiday was cool spent time with my son and watched an amazing fire works presentation it was great:-) I see u set the sparks off for the 4th lol!!! Get em mama keep ya head up and it's great to know u r better not hearing from u made me kinda worry but, I know ur all fine!!!I'll ttyl and have a blessed weekend:-)
Lilbit,
The concrete (109 degrees) in southern Cali is way too hot for you to have every man's tongue hangin down on the ground.. Gyrl that apple bottom is what round is all about.. Tight, lifted and dayum beautiful.. Wow!!! Woman N red , you rock...
Hey Sexy lady! No worries!! I cant wait to talk to you too!! I'll be home tomorrow night after 6pm my time...I work noon - 5...i'm middle time zone..lmao. Hope your having a fantastic day!! Avi is SMOKIN as usual babe!! Big hugs and smiles!!
Hey mama:-)Awesome progress pics u r looking ripped I think the 4 weeks off gave ur body and muscles some time to heal up from all the training!!!Keep up the good work and have a blessed day:-)
Hey mama! Thanks!!! Happy 4th to ya ! I c u back on that pole that's what I like to c !!! Thank God ur health is better this means it's time to move forward and progress again keep ya head up mama I'll ttly and have a blessed day!!!
Awww Chel said you were so nice!! I cant wait hun! Where is your daughter?? I cant even imagine what it will be like when mine leaves home (sniff)she is my sidekick and my righthand man...lmao What are you doing for 4th celebrations??
