See the fake smile. This was during my "dark years". I was well over 150 lbs. I was hooked on cocaine & prescription drugs, drank alot, give into the criticism of those who adhere to mediocrity, and was in a complete depression. I had given up on fitness because I didn't want to be seen as vain or obsessed with my body. I was miserable.

See the fake smile. This was during my "dark years". I was well over 150 lbs. I was hooked on cocaine & prescription drugs, drank alot, give into the criticism of those who adhere to mediocrity, and was in a complete depression. I had given up on fitness because I didn't want to be seen as vain or obsessed with my body. I was miserable.

Yes, this is what I look like when I work sub-optimally , with no cardio and not watching what I eat half the time

Funny thing is that I intentionally tried to gain alot of weight for that Hydroxycut challenge, but I just couldn' do it! This was the most I could let myself get to

I love this bikini and in 5 weeks, I want to look killer in it! Watch out Cougar.. this lil kitty is on the prowl

Small change due to 2 weeks of being injured. First my shoulder, then my neck.. it's all related to my shoulder surgery a year ago

Seems not much of a change from last week... blame it on the hormones ! I'll probably get on the scale next monday and be down 2 lbs instead of 1.

After 4 weeks of a 75% adherence to program. Originals were taken April 13, but I lost a few weeks due to erratic work schedule & 3 minor neck/shoulder injuries that stalled me

Last update photo taken at end of day. Next week I'll start doing them when I wake up.

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weekly update. i am taking this body to Ms. Bikini Universe; definitely not my best, but it will have to do. I had more weight to lose this program than all my prior. BUP will definitely be a big motivator for me for NPC and the rest of the shows this summer. I see BUP as my "season appetizer", NPC LA will be my main course and then Bikini California & FLEX will be the desserts.

results of 5 weeks, starting at 142 lbs and competing at 136lbs (this is usually the weight I start my program at, but this spring I porked out)

Almost one month of half a*s dieting attempt while I restructured my goals. Decided not to give up because I do like my body the way it is. This is the update photo before I start my 7 week program to get ready for the NPC GNC Tournament of Champions on Sept 12 (my 36th birthday) to be held in Culver City, CA

Just a hello and sweet wink to all my buddies on Bodyspace. LIVE WELL

Restarted my die program last week. Lost half a pound YAY

Just saying hi again

I woke up at 133 lbs this evening after a 6 hour nap (YAY) recovering from a bad headache. Since my fiasco at the FLEX Bikini contest in 2007, and because I just haven't been able to compete as much as I used to, I am not sure how I am going to turn out on stage. 2 years ago, I thought I'd be ok, but up in the lineup for FLEX, I was the fat girl. I got one more week to drop the salt, carb deplete then load then water deplete... the traditional and natural way. Thankfully, it's won't be that time of the month so I won't be fighting hormonal bloating

Managed to deplete the pre-menstrual bloat and loaded up on water... weighing in at 135.5 lbs the day before the Bikini contest.

Maybe I should have worn the original black suit but I wanted to see what this one would look like. I'm kinda liking it better than the black suit

8 AM day of the contest, before breakfast After 1 day of water depletion & using Taraxatone Extreme.

Of course, haven'et changed a pound in a month, but I also haven't diet extremely. Just held from last updates to now. Got 2.5 more weeks unil Bikini America. Opted out of Figure and decided to do Model America instead. Still aiming for the Excalibur

Taken 10-23-2009 by Mike Byerly in Hermosa Beach, for Fitnss Model International conference www.fitnessmodelinternational.com www.mikebyerly.com

Friday night before competition, trying to choose a suit. I think I am going with the other brown one I have for the stage.

On my way out the door to compete. I hope this is good enough. I"M STARVING AND THIRSTY ! ! !

You know competitors say they always look better the day AFTER the competition? Well, i wanted to see for myself. This is really not a true after photo. I only drank an extra 1/2 gallon of green tea and a 16 oz clam chowder, and 3 regular diet meals after the show from 9pm to 4 am (I was at work).