first time feel skinny as an adult. I was in love and in shape. Me and my then boyfriend love detox and whole foods diet. we drank a lot of juice and was really healthy. I also came out of a binging eating disorder, so I am not sure about my weight at this pic, probably 115-118lbs.

I ate too much today. Gotta do some damage control tomorrow. Staying up late and feel tired & over eat seems to be the pattern I have. Staying up late = deprived energy = want to eat eat eat. Have to change my life style around that now.

first time feel skinny as an adult. I was in love and in shape. Me and my then boyfriend love detox and whole foods diet. we drank a lot of juice and was really healthy. I also came out of a binging eating disorder, so I am not sure about my weight at this pic, probably 115-118lbs.

we were on vacation on an island, it was hot so i took it off--so you are looking at my small boobs, my bra and my g-sting! I wish I had enjoyed myself more at that time.

I had a rebound relationship---after broke up with someone I loved. It all went down hill from here. dressed up for halloween. aw so cute!wearing a tiny size 3 skirt here.

I was hit hard by the break up--almost a year later, still at it. I started gaining weight uncontrollably. I was suicidal so my counselor put me on Celexa. it affect my appetite so i got a bit skinny here. Now I think about it, it's really scary how much I wanted to end the pain...and I know nobody can tell from how I acted in school.size 4 jeans here.

I started learning a new software and got into it. I remember really wanted to figure it out so i ate only apples when I was hungry...the rest of the time I just sit on my ass and work work work. surprisingly got really skinny here.

getting fat here---from all the stress at senior year. But since i refuse to weight myself (from my previous experience during eating disorder), I was lying to myself that i was still ok...till later.... (I had such hard time finding a picture of myself at this time period...I guess I really didn't feel good about my body so had almost no pictures taken during this time) (however I take pictures of everyone else!)

was this the same person?! no wonder I didn't want my pictures taken! all the stress, lack of sleep, crappy food, late night eating...all add up to this shit!my size 4, $200 jeans had to retire at this point.

I didn't know that i had gotten that fat prior to seeing this picture. i was shocked! I really was too busy at senior year and didn't pay attention to anything else except my school work!

this is one crash diet after another...I didn't feel good, though I pretended that since I was a bit lighter, everything was ok---everything wasn't really ok....I felt very unhealthy and unhappy.

During the summer I was forced to go on a crash diet---I fasted, or whatever you want to call it---didn't eat anything for almost 10 days and dropped 8 ponds. Subsequence to the summer, I went on a few diets here, but in many way I was traumatized by the extreme deprivation.

crash diet doesn't work. deprivation will only set you up for bringing eating...I have done it countless times.I was shocked that I was at my all time high (64 kg) and wearing size 8. I want to hide into a hole.

a friend I haven't seen for 10- years came for a visit. She just reminded me what it is like to pay attention to your physiques and get attentions when you do. I felt like a fat loser. At the time I resent her for making fun of me, but slowly I realize the power of jealousy and such confrontation. Didn't they say good friends are like mirrors? they reflect your image even when it's not pretty.

I couldn't enjoy the vocation even at the most beautiful place in the world (one of the top 10 beaches)--because I was fat....suck it in suck it in---didn't work!

i lied to myself for a long time. Usually pictures get you in perspective.

size 6 jeans is getting loss...hopefully I can get in a size 4 soon again and maybe one day achieve size 2. I am surprised how much this "progress picture" thing put me in perspective...I think it's pretty apparent that permanent weight loss will not come with a quick fix...diet and fitness is for life! and the most important thing is self-love...I guess i can say when you love your body unconditionally, this will add to the circle of positive energy that eventually bring you to a better place...I am trying to keep at it and keep being positive... Thanks for watching, see yo guys next time.

I was in the spinning room doing curls. and I saw my muscle moving under my skin! it's the first time i see my own muscle like that! I can't believe my eyes! (you better believe it!) it feels great! I am really losing fat and gaining muscles!

there's no better motivator than seeing this in the mirror! (MORE IMPRESSIVE SEEING IT IN PERSON!)

Need to watch the scale and the jeans size. My fat creep up all over and distribute evenly on my body makes it hard to detect weight gain sometimes. Often when i realize I got fat, it's way over just a couple ponds!

coming from an asian country and live in the united states really brings me diverse perspective on how people view body standards. I grew up being skinny in my country, moved to the states in my early 20s, and went through a personal revolution about personal values and what's good what's bad, what's fat, what's thin. What prove to be always difficult is when i thought i was doing great here in the states, only found myself confronted by the sunken cheeks and child-like torsos of other girls.

love handles are tricky! They creep up on you from behind your back--literally!!! But it's good to take pictures and keep me in perspective and maybe see them go away????????

I don't believe some people's suggestion of looking in the mirror and not weight yourself kind of measurement. It definately didn't work for me because I always looks good to me! my fat sort of creep up on me slowly, all over, so I now rely on scale much more and taking pictures also helps a lot! wow, i definatly see a lot of things I don't see in the mirror.

feel guilty for having fried food over lunch! and lot of social events to attend tonight....I am nervous about lossing control over food that will be offered to me, because my diet is boring right now!

back can be one of the place that shows one's "leaness", I definately need to work on that!

The last time i wore these jeans, i was gaining weight and didn't know what to do about it. i hope I will use these skills and keep my weight off!!!

I think six packs is the ultimate sign of fitness achievement!I am so envious of other people's ABSS!!! I want to see mine as well. My weight now is still pretty high with visible layers of fat covering my muscle! Cardio and weight training is for me!

I am so sore from the workouts i did last week, I feel so uncomfortable that i feel like cheating bit time!!!! but I took some pictures to keep myself in perspective! small steps counts I guess! I did fasted cardio this morning. it sucked but I know it's for the best!

It's a curse! that's what they say about woman's monthly cycle! i feel fat!!!!! god damn it! How do you loss weight when your body just want to GAIN weight????

It's between fat and fit, the belly jiggle is not cooperating and not going away!!!!!!!I am mad!

I don't want to just look good in certain angles, I want to look good in ALL angles!

race to the end, count down 10 days!

where is it?where is it?where is it?where is it?where is it?where is it?where is it?where is it?where is it?where is it?where is it?where is it?where is it?where is it?where is it?where is it?

Going to Taiwan in 6 days, try to stay calm....I think compare to the May 24th pic, my back don't look as "meaty" now, but I was also wearing different clothing, so it's hard to tell. what do you think? did I loss weight? not weight, but look skinner????

After 50 days in Taiwan and no weight training, minimum cardio, lots of eating...my muscle was gone and sugar coated with you-know-what...let the hell begin again.

I am in fat hell. I have been watching my calories but I just feel so defeated. I am in fat hell. I am fat again. All time high. feeling down and helpless.

I lost 3 lbs pretty fast and was really excited. In the past, in a situation like this I often feel "accomplished" and thought that I WAS accomplished. And then I thought I would be allow a little goodie something...you know the rest of the story...I have been at my all time high weight for 2 years...I have been kidding myself with my diet. Working out 6 days a week and not lossing a thing for many many times...it's time to get serious.

GOAL 110 LB!!! 137.5 lb is still pretty big, but I have grasped the trick of weight loss...I wish that i have figured it out years ago.

butterfly sleeves are the fat under your arm...it makes you look fat...

GOAL 110 LB! Keep the eyes fixed on the prize!!!! I love losing weight!!! I got down another LB!!! so excited!!!! ;-)))))

GOAL 110---MY DREAMS CAN COME TRUE!!! IT'S REAL!!!

I ate too much today. Gotta do some damage control tomorrow. Staying up late and feel tired & over eat seems to be the pattern I have. Staying up late = deprived energy = want to eat eat eat. Have to change my life style around that now.