Sean

Female

28

Grad student

Sep, 2000

I STARTED to pay attention to fitness when I was a freshman in college. One day I was sitting with my legs crossed and within five minutes my legs were numb. I was only 19 and it was alarming! I decided that I need to start pay attention to my health. I started to jog in the tracks in a near by school in the morning and sometimes swim. I was 54 kg(119 lb) then, I thought I was fat. BETWEEN WHEN I WAS 21 TO I WAS 24, I BATTLED WITH EATING DISORDER. It took me a long time to one day realize that i am tired of living like this, tired of not enjoying myself. I also went through a recovery process from a bad break up...and could never get myself together during this time. I recently realize how much the other person had moved on and I stuck in this stupid rut hole...I need to change for the better for myself, it's time to love myself...already! 2007----I crave for a change---I wasn't sure what direction I should take in my life after I graduate from college a year ago. I was going through some interviews and since getting a job was the most important thing in the world, I wasn't working out. My spirit was low and I wasn't feeling good about myself. I joined the gym that's really close to me even though it's a bit pricy---I want to commit to my healthy again! and what's more---fit in my cloth that sits in my closet (it's a god damn walk-in too)! [I observed that many people gain a considerable amount of weight after college graduation due to the shock of the real world! I did the same thing, now I have another 20lb to loss as the result!] this year 2008, I broke my wrist and unlucky in employment. But i try to keep my attitude upbeat! I now am able to separate my failure to that of myself as a person--means I can do badly but not feel badly about myself; I still like myself no matter what. I think it's a psychological milestone for me. Also I start to realize how much I am lacking Amino Acid in my diet because of vegetarianism. i am taking more supplement with amino acid and try to see which one works the best! still keep going! I WANT TO SEE MY SIX PACK!

I feel great! I am learning a lot about lossing fat and nutritions. I love feeling strong and knowing that i can protect myself better when I am fit. Exercise and proper nutrient also keep depression at bay! it's important for me since it runs in the family. depression really is a fatal disease!

being 25 is an interesting thing---I am a quarter of a century old, and I am in the middle of my 20s. When I look back to all the precious years being in my early 20s and can hardly recall ANY day that I enjoyed being me, it just sounded ridiculous to me. I am pretty, smart, talented and have many successful experience in my life, however all I did in my early 20s was being self-critical and downing myself. This year, after such realization, I decided that I will not in my 30s and look back to this second part of my 20s and feel the same way. I cannot make up the lost time, and all the opportunities that I could have enjoyed myself, plus they brought nothing to my life except regrets, therefore, I WANT TO LIVE NOW! AND I LOVE MYSELF NOW EVERYDAY! AND BE POSITIVE AND HAPPY---HAHAHHAHAH!

July 30-I saw my arm muscle for the first time! I just started training seriously for 20 days! I guess I am doing good! August 2nd---I fit into my size 4 jeans! not comfortably though, but! I haven't wear this jeans for a year! WOOOOHOOO!! August 8th-I can do leg press with weight one level above my own body weight! I am advanced from before! yeah! August 14th--I FIT IN MY HOT PANTS! August 15th---positive thinking is one of the most important thing to have in my life! I kept told myself "YOU CAN DO IT" and finished 3 mile today! I am starting to train for a small triathlon! I love my life!

"My life is my message." ------Mahatma Gandhi