A few reasons I guess,I didn’t like the fact that I had let myself go again. I had lost 30 pounds a few years ago and gained it all back. I was sick of looking for things to wear and would say “I have nothing to wear” but yet I had lots of clothes but none that fit me. It’s been a dream of mine to one day compete in a Figure competition. There is one coming up in Nov of 2012 and I want to try it out. I’m pretty much on my own and have a lot to learn yet. I love the feeling I have now working out and getting healthy. Things I had to do for myself in order for this to work this time. I had to give up drinking and smoking, both were really hard for me, but I haven’t had a drink, it will be 5 months on the 25th of Feb. I’m so happy about that and I don’t smoke it been around 7 months now. I was just a occasional smoker but not anymore. The second best thing I ever did was get rid of the people in my life that were negative. This was also hard because I cut out family members and some old friends. Once I did that it was like the flood gates opened and all my stress was released. The third thing I did was change the way I trained at the gym and how I ate. Just healthy and low sodium and minimal sugar. I got a good weight training program and then I was off. I did this gradually because I found the last 10 or so times that I tried this I went to hard and to fast and it set me up to fail each time. I still have my cheat days on the weekend and eat clean all week. As the time gets closer to the competition I will do all that I need to do. So the forth thing I did was put up posters or rip the pages out of the magazines of girls that I wanted to look like. So it’s the last thing I see when I go to bed and the first thing I see when I go to sleep. This is the one I love the most because, I get the most motivation for this. I’m so happy to go to the gym, I actually get butterflies in my stomach I’m so excited. I just love it!!!

I love the way it makes me feel, and I can see my body change all the time. If im stressed and having a bad day and I don’t want to go to the gym, I make myself go and I feel so much better. There have been times when I wanted to sleep in or drive pass the gym because I’m so tired but that’s what I did the last few times and I know if I miss it just one time it will be so easy to keep doing it. Plus I need to do this for me and my heath and sanity