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Kenyon College Attended 2005 to 2009 Gambier, Ohio United States
High School:
When I Started:
2003
How I Started:
I've always been active in cheerleading, dance, baton, etc. Started lifting weight in 2003. I can't stand to be sedentary.
Why I Love It:
I love seeing the results and moving bigger and heavier weights. I love making people in the gym do a double take when they see what I'm lifting. It is also the only thing that keeps me from getting severely depressed.
How I Stay Motivated:
I love it too much to not be motivated. I've never suffered from lack of motivation when it comes to being active. Of course there are times I am more motivated than others but that is normally when I'm depressed and I need to workout then more than ever.
BB Accomplishments:
Ms. Fitness Great Lakes 2nd place
Forum Signature:
~A posse ad esse - From possibility to actuality~
Today, just like yesterday, and like tomorrow,
I will make the most of my workout.
I will be intense, I will be committed, I will be focused.
Today, just like yesterday, and like tomorrow,
I will push my body to the limit,
I will embrace the hurt, I will embrace the pain.
Today, just like yesterday and like tomorrow,
I will lift heavier
I will get bigger
I will get stronger
My main goal is just to get stronger. I want to lift more every time I go to the gym. I want to be strong, and look strong. Leanness isn't a priority of mine. I'll lean down for specific events, but once they're over, I don't really care how lean I am so long as I am healthy.
So, I was hoping that exercising more would help with the depression, but it's not. It seems like the more I do, the harder the crash. I cannot tolerate the crashes so I'm not sure what I'm going to end up doing.
One thing that keeps going through my mind is why didn't...
Don't worry, it wasn't what you said...or what anyone else said for that matter. Not in particular, just in general I was feeling pressured to go faster than what I'm ready to do. But I'll still be around here and stuff. Thanks Sophie.
Yeah, I'm doing fine. I just decided I'd rather keep a private journal instead so that my thoughts and feelings aren't critiqued. I think I felt pressure to do things I'm not comfortable with and I'd just rather take things at my own pace. I appreciate all the support and I'll still be around. Thanks Sophie!
Hi Sophie,
Your blog caught my eye, and I had to stop by and let you know I am wishing you well. Depression is such a beast! You have really pulled through some hard times, YOU definitely have a strong body, mind, and spirit. Get some sunshine! It really helps :D ~Missy
You're so sweet Sophie, thank you! I've decided to stick around because I've made a lot of genuinely neat people here and I really can't imagine leaving. I'm just going to lay low for a while. It might be good for me anyway. I'll still log in everyday and stuff :).
