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Kenyon College Attended 2005 to 2009 Gambier, Ohio United States
High School:
When I Started:
2003
How I Started:
I've always been active in cheerleading, dance, baton, etc. Started lifting weight in 2003. I can't stand to be sedentary.
Why I Love It:
I love seeing the results and moving bigger and heavier weights. I love making people in the gym do a double take when they see what I'm lifting. It is also the only thing that keeps me from getting severely depressed.
How I Stay Motivated:
I love it too much to not be motivated. I've never suffered from lack of motivation when it comes to being active. Of course there are times I am more motivated than others but that is normally when I'm depressed and I need to workout then more than ever.
BB Accomplishments:
Ms. Fitness Great Lakes 2nd place
Forum Signature:
~A posse ad esse - From possibility to actuality~
Today, just like yesterday, and like tomorrow,
I will make the most of my workout.
I will be intense, I will be committed, I will be focused.
Today, just like yesterday, and like tomorrow,
I will push my body to the limit,
I will embrace the hurt, I will embrace the pain.
Today, just like yesterday and like tomorrow,
I will lift heavier
I will get bigger
I will get stronger
My main goal is just to get stronger. I want to lift more every time I go to the gym. I want to be strong, and look strong. Leanness isn't a priority of mine. I'll lean down for specific events, but once they're over, I don't really care how lean I am so long as I am healthy.
And I don't like holiday season. I think the dislike started when my mom died and has just never left. I can count on 1 hand the number of times a Christmas tree has been put up in the 11 years since my mom died. I just saw no need to do so, and it wasn't done.
Just a few. It's weird because when I posted my pictures in the photos section most guys said I looked "too lean", but I think there are some who have fetishes for the really shredded bodybuilder types. I agree with you, I need to not work on trying to please anyone else. I need to do what is healthy mentally and physically.
Luckily it's only been a couple people who have encouraged that, mainly guys too. I tend to dwell way too much on the negative comments and negative people, even though there are far more positive, encouraging people (like you). Yes, I know what I need to do and I cannot lose track of that. My mind is still somewhat disordered and I know I need to be careful. I really can't go back now. Thanks Sophie!
Don't worry, it wasn't what you said...or what anyone else said for that matter. Not in particular, just in general I was feeling pressured to go faster than what I'm ready to do. But I'll still be around here and stuff. Thanks Sophie.
Yeah, I'm doing fine. I just decided I'd rather keep a private journal instead so that my thoughts and feelings aren't critiqued. I think I felt pressure to do things I'm not comfortable with and I'd just rather take things at my own pace. I appreciate all the support and I'll still be around. Thanks Sophie!
Hi Sophie,
Your blog caught my eye, and I had to stop by and let you know I am wishing you well. Depression is such a beast! You have really pulled through some hard times, YOU definitely have a strong body, mind, and spirit. Get some sunshine! It really helps :D ~Missy
