OKay so now i am full into the diet and feeling really tired this morning! I am doing the opposite of what most girls are probably doing now... I have slashed my protein and cranked up my cardio and running to burn off some of the muscle density in my legs. I am anxiously waiting for word on my new one piece suit... and stressing about the star-status of some of my potential competitors. I've got my presentation down and i'm perfecting myquarter turns... only 4 weeks to go and i am fired-up!

^ weeks from tonight i will probably be sitting in a pre-show meeting, or maybe putting on my fake eyelashes... I will be about 15 shades darker than my natural skin tone and i will be emanating a strange tanning product odor. My stomach will be very empty, and my throat will be calling out for some water, but i won't care because there are more important things to worry about now. How does my suit look?  Is my color good? How do i compare to all these other girls? Will i trip onstage (like last time) ? Did i pick the right hairstyle? Is my face too shiny? Are my shoulders big enough? Are...