There is so much that drives me each day, I think one thing that motivates me the most is the need and the want to approve of myself each day. I wake up and brush my teeth, and there in the mirror, there I am! I got o the gym and mirrors surround everywhere I train and there I am again! I not only want to look good in the mirror, but I love the feeling of knowing I MADE the body Im walking around in. Knowing I put in the work and the outcome should be proof. Sometimes, I do feel defeated b/c of my diet (lack of carbs) or because I am unable to lift as much as I could with carbs, I have cried in the middle of a set or doing cardio b/c of my appearence thinking, "how could I let myself get this way?" I have my mini breakdowns and I sometimes dont feel like going to the gym or pre-paring the meals in advance... BUT...

If I DONT go to the gym, I AM defeated. If I dont give it my all I will not see changes in my body. If I dont pre-pare those meals in advance I will skip meals or CHEAT and that will NOT help me. I cant let those "instant gratifying moods" stand between me and what I want. I get down like anyone gets down, but those are the times I feel I have to pick myself up, re-evaluate why I am doing this... Im doing this to SAVE my Life FIGHT for my body... to completely CHANGE for the better. Quitting is the worst feeling in the world, knowing you had a chance but GAVE it up willingly. I would rather feel hungry, starving for carbs, tired, sore, defeated because I gave my all in everything I did every. Single. Day. Than ACTUALLY be defeated my poor choices.

I have much more that drives me, but as you can see I loooove to write : ) so Ill leave it at this for now... I hope this helps some of you... ask yourself when things look bleak, "why am I doing this?" and remind yourself of the happiness you seek and the changes that you want can only come from standing strong when youre feeling weak.